Being stuck in limbo and working 9am ’til 5pm/6pm/7pm…
By Catherine Hudson, editor of FashTravels
FashBaby: A whole new kind of adventure hosted at FashTravels. Here, you’ll find a weekly diary of my pregnancy journey.
In limbo land
I’ve realised why I’ve been feeling a bit, confused… I feel a bit, weird, doing the same daily things while being only 12 weeks away from my due date, now, and not feeling much like myself. But I also don’t feel entirely ready for two to become three, just yet. Three people from my What to Expect When You’re Expecting app gave birth to their babies over Christmas at between 24 and 26 weeks – and all babies are doing well. This has prompted me to get my hospital bag packed, but also to consider, who am I? – continuing theme from week 26’s blog, it seems… Has anyone else felt this at around 27/28 weeks? I’m so excited to meet our baby, and have a glass of wine, but gosh, it all suddenly seems a bit, overwhelming. And at the same time, I don’t feel like I quite fit in my old life, either. I was in tears over a passing comment from my partner, when he jokingly said, “you’ve changed!”, when I had to turn down a night out in favour of the sofa due to having been out every other night that week. I’m still me! Aren’t I?
My day job is as style editor at Gurgle magazine, and I truly love my job. Even though my day freelancing a week means I can often be working ’til late at night and at weekends, but I wouldn’t change any of it. I don’t know how to switch off!
I’ve worked at parenting magazines for around eight years, now, writing lifestyle pages – or ‘fluff’, as some call it – including baby and mum fashion, travel, interiors and food content. Though, as a magazine writer, squeezed staffing means I have written all sorts, including health articles. This doesn’t mean I ‘know it all’ when it comes to being pregnant or having a baby. But I guess it does mean I have a head start in some ways. I have also been polling my friends and followers on Facebook and Instagram on all kinds of things including hospital bag packing and formula milk. I’ll post the comments in other articles, as they have been SO helpful, for us. I’ve been writing lots more articles about newborn bits recently, like first wardrobe essentials and maternity fashion. It’s even more fun now it relates to daily life!
I love being able to meet, and chat with, so many people ever day who can give me expert advice and info. I know that it’s the ‘digital age’, and all that, but for me, nothing beats the chill out factor, the integrity, and balanced feature spread that you can get from a well-chosen magazine – I even love the smell of the pages, such a tactile experience. So much passion, time and energy goes into creating every single issue. I’ve poured pints of sweat and tears into my pages. Have I bled? Well, yes. There’s been a few accidents while putting up prams and unpacking things at shoots!
* I must prelude anything I write in this blog series as totally my own experiences and opinions. I’ve already learned to prefix everything I say in general conversation about pregnancy and babies with, ‘everyone’s different, but…’
You can follow me @fash.baby and @fashcatherine
Inside my baby brain…
Things I am loving, this week
- Nursery nesting – In particular, we set up our Snuzpod 2 and our Sleepyhead pod, which we are storing inside it, for now. I will share more pics of the Snuzpod 2, next week, which is a bedside crib and will go beside our bed for the first six months – YIKES! This has been on my wish list for ages now, even before I was pregnant because I just love collecting beautiful things (I know, I’m weird). Everyone has been LOVING our Sleepyhead marble cover over on my Instagram, and we love it, too. Most of the nursery is grey and white, so it’s perfect. Putting a crib up makes the room look much more like a nursery. Another step towards becoming ‘mum and dad’.
- Nursery nesting, part two – Putting up shelves… I did these ones! The two wooden ones are from The Range, one of my favourite shops. I could spend hours there, my partner walks in and asks ‘time to leave?’ I just love growing the shelves, as you can get everything from underbid storage and ironing boards to pretty lampshades, photo frames and garden bits. We are collecting so many lovely things, including this sweet Miffy toy, baby toiletries from brands like Chantecaille and Little Aurelia, and loads of gorgeous teethers! How cute is the milk bottle one? From Fred + Noah. Anyone else have any great nursery interiors inspo websites or favourite brands? Would love to hear.
Things I am loathing, this week
- Doing my tax return
Instagram quote from @thefatjewish
I have already asked my dad to let me use his accountant, next year. And that’s enough said about tax returns – just get someone else to do it!!
Read my column every week here on FashBaby (a whole new kind of adventure) at FashTravels.com, to follow my pregnancy journey
- The pregnancy diaries: ‘I’m pregnant. Now what?’ – Introduction: Weeks 0-18
Hello, my name is Catherine and I‘m pregnant!
- The pregnancy diaries: ‘I’m pregnant. Now what?’ – Week 19
Hearing the heartbeat and telling people
- The pregnancy diaries: ‘I’m pregnant. Now what?’ – Week 20
Sleeping, 20-week scan and nesting
- The pregnancy diaries: ‘I’m pregnant. Now what?’ – Week 21
Confidence, quiet time and trial runs
- The pregnancy diaries: ‘I’m pregnant. Now what?’ – Week 22
The one where we went on a babymoon to Sri Lanka
- The pregnancy diaries: ‘I’m pregnant. Now what?’ – Week 23
Bathtime, being lazy and shaving rules
- The pregnancy diaries: ‘I’m pregnant. Now what?’ – Week 24
We’re a team, baby – you, me and…
- The pregnancy diaries: ‘I’m pregnant. Now what?’ – Week 25
Seeing your baby in 4D – what is it and is it a good idea?
- The pregnancy diaries: ‘I’m pregnant. Now what?’ – Week 26
Christmas, acid reflux and wondering who I am